I’ve been avoiding posting publicly because I’d have to accept that my brother truly has passed on…and that just doesn’t seem possible, because ever since I was a little l kid I’ve felt he was invincible. That’s just how it was, it’s difficult to accept anything else.  
As anyone who’s met my brother Alec for a split second knows, he was the Sun of any space. He had a way, a presence of being, he was an undeniable force. 
Alec was big, but his heart was bigger. He was loud, but his actions were louder. He loved with every ounce. Like my mother, he easily made connections to anyone. He always found the common thread of laughter. His laughter was felt as much as heard in thunderous vibrations. He shook the room. Anyone that knew him, knew that laughter and can probably hear and feel it at this very moment. 
I imagine he’s somewhere in some far-off place meeting with family and friends from the past doing what he has always done, bringing everyone to thunderous laughter. 
Even at this very moment, I’m still not believing it. I choose to believe he’s still here, I can hear him in the distance. Wherever you are big brother, you’re loved, today, always, and forever.